I've been listening to scary music and going urban exploring alone late at night

After my ex cheated on me, I've been starting to become really reckless with my free time. I lost all my friends and made new ones that support my new more reckless life, and in fact, suggest I do it more. At this point i'm just seeing where life takes me. I feel hopeless and tired/ Lately I've picked up urban exploring and it made me feel alive knowing all of the danger of entering an abandoned structure in a dangerous part of the city. I started doing this at night.

dont worry dude,u gotta realise life has so much more to offer and the best way to realise that is by travelling