You've my apologies

There seriously is no need to apologize for stuff like this. Heck, you don't even have to share it if you prefer. Anyway, now you did all I can do for you is wish you the best. You will be aright, trust this random stranger on the internet.
Set goals for yourself and live up to them, challenge yourself to get the most out of yourself. You're not obliged to be on here and develop stuff 24/7. Take your time and relax for a while. Try to get a good sleeping pattern, if you don't already. Don't start the day bad, wake up and smile to to world. Tell yourself you're going to make the most out of your day possible. Don't let anyone drag you down, don't let anyone criticize you. Keep strong and things will get better.

You've probably heard this before, but it's true. Do what makes you happy.