Have you ffound your love ?

20-05-2020, 09:20 PM

Oathkeeper Wrote: -

They say (it takes you 5 years to fix one single problem)
we felt in love when we were kids, we spent 6 years to gether, and guess what? i lied to her when the whole thing started.
i said 'you are my first love' and she wasn't my 1st, when i was a kid i loved another girl and we couldn't be together and i did move on and then i found my ex. after 6 years that girl i liked became her room mate at college, and shit started to get complicated, somehow someway my ex became bestfriend to that bitch and that bitch mentioned that old story, that there was something happening between us, i lied to her when i said that she is my 1st love, and after shit happened i told her the truth, she didn't like that. she couldn't accept that i lied to her for 6 whole years.
she left me.
2 days she started calling me, i ignored her calls, messages. i just didn't like it either, the way she act to me, the way she broke up with me.
2 months later, she called me at 4:00am, we did talk, then we start fighting again. yes, she left again.
4months later, she texted me, called, added me on skype, then we fought again..
she kept close to me after all that, no talk, but she was secretly stalking me.. i knew that but everytime when i try to talk to her or text her she just doesn't reply.. i get drunk and start sending her messages, telling her how much i love her, and when i wake up.. i feel so dumb you know, then i start recieving some fake facebook invites, it was her.
but she never talk. i can't tell what's wrong with her or why shes doing that but i must admit that shes the smartest person ive ever meet, cute, well educated, and she was with me in hard times like none eles, she was the only person i can talk with. she was my best friend, my only friend and my dream girl, i meet so many other girls but i couldn't ... even talk with them.. i just can't allow new comers to enter my life just like that, and you know that feeling, they will gone after a really short time. my ex was the greatest thing that happened in my life. and i will always love/miss her.
i just can't move on. believe me i tried