Have you ffound your love ?

I thought I found my love with a guy that was in the same grade as me last year (junior year).
I had strong feelings for this dude and I really didn't know why, but I liked him anyway. He was a nice and smart dude, and he was kinda good looking. Not model status, but in my eyes he was hot.
Fast forward to January of 2019, I ended up giving him a letter confessing my feelings for him (yes, very cliche and embarrassing I know) and giving it to him. I couldn't even give it to him, someone had to give it to him for me because I was so nervous to give it to him. Like a couple of days later, he texted me saying that we should talk, blah blah blah and that we should meet in front of the auditorium at our school the next morning.
Long story short, he ended up rejecting me. Told me "I wasn't made that way" which is still hilarious to me now LOL. Anyway, I've kind of grown out of it and we're pretty good (?) friends now, just straight chillin. I always think about what would've come out of it if we actually did date, but then I realize that we aren't really meant for each other anyway. He also has some flaws that kind of makes me hate him a little LMFAO