The first couple of times I smoked weed were a good time in my life and they were pretty great experiences with the drug, but not long after I started going through a serious depression (still am) it affected my outlook on the drug and the experiences that it brought me. Even with small hits I begin to go extremely paranoid and think the worst thoughts possible and it can be even worse depending on the situation and the amount I intake, but I've begun to improve a little bit and hope to reach that clarity I had with my first couple of experiences.