Chronic depression

Yeah, i've been diagnosed with this since i was about 4-5 years of age.

It's something i have to live with everyday and there's no permanent solution for it at all, there is minor ones like periodical medication & just generally making my lifestyle more positive.
But yet it's always inside me itching & aching to get out and bring back those voices in my head telling me to just stay in bed & not do fuck all with my life.
I don't know why i'm sharing this, supposively talking to strangers about it would help a little i guess.

Right now i'm at my worst period of times & i don't really know what to do because medication or positive lifestyle isn't working for me right now even though i have great things going on in life right now like i'm moving in with my girlfriend, getting ready to settle & build a really good life, but yet i feel so lost.