Advice Needed I'm feeling like I want to kill myself randomly.

We recently lost a friend to suicide. It seems like the easy way out but in reality it leaves your friennds and family wondering why. None of my friends saw this coming at all. We all hung out hours before and everything was great. No reason to get upset over small things like drama ect. Find something that makes you happy and chase it. If that helps you get out of the mood then do you. IF people cant understand that then you will find friends along the way that will. Those are the people you need around you. I have honestly like 5 good friends and 1 maybe 2 that are best friends.