Serious I want to die.

15-03-2018, 03:38 PM

JeffTheKiIIer Wrote: Seriously, just what do I do to see any point to life and contacting another human being? I don't see any and it's making me just want to end it all. School is also pressuring me, I can't study because of my memory being extremely bad, and I'm failing 7 classes to put the cherry on top of the cake.
Just what do I do?
I want to and don't want to die.
I already have a plan to do it in a few days.
Give me a reason, a meaning, don't tell me to contact someone or whatever, because I already take anti depressants (SSRI) and I go to apsychologist every week, and I'm always just being quiet when asked what the problem is, because my brain turns off, and nothing comes to mind.

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Is it too late? Am I too broken? Has the torture broken me too much to be able to talk about my problems? To be able to even remember what happened, yet it still affects me somehow? What's happening to me?

Try to keep yourself busy, read something, literally anything fantasy, biography something that you like. It will make you realise how absurd things are written by people. I can give you some recommendations:
TheTale of Two Brothers- Anpu and Bata
Metamorphosis, John Kafka
The diary of a nobody
Invisible dragon(Read this now, it will only take about 30 minutes)
Galactic Dark Net (Finishing this will give your life a real purpose, kill the author atleast a hundred times)
If it comes to it even write a book or atleast some articles. It will help.