Serious I want to die.

Ok, even against my wishes I won't tell you to see someone. You ever think about taking a semester off of school? Maybe your subconscious is trying to tell you that it isn't for you. I guess I would tell you to listen to some Alan Watts, he talks about how to counteract nihilism. 7 classes is a lot of classes. You may be stressed out. Are you living a balanced life? Do you have a friend you see regularly, do you exercise, eat well? I'd also recommend you listening to some Les Brown talks. He saved my life, maybe he could say something to save yours. All the best man, I hope you know we're all gonna make it.