As much as I agree with everyone just saying "smoke up buddy" lmao, sometimes it fucks you up especially when you're going into your buzz thinking about how shit everything is, weed amplifies all emotions and feelings so try to relax before you smoke up. Make some food, put on a good show or play a slow paced game that you love. It's like female orgasms, you gotta get the atmosphere and shit right before you can fuck with your head.