weed? should i

It's really up to you, although it seems like you already know that you want to. It won't inherently ruin your life like heroin will, but it does run the risk of you yourself letting it get out of control. Weed is not physically addictive but it can be mentally addictive and it's easy to fool yourself into thinking that you're more productive or more thoughtful when you're high and therefore it's good for you.

There are certainly some benefits to smoking/vaping/eating weed but really it comes down to how well you can maintain a good relationship with it, just as any other substance.