Masturbation

Funny, but I'm a prisoner to feelings and I do not have this particular need as "masturbation". It's just a short waste of time, nothing special, nothing interesting, just a boring waste of time. However, I do watch a lot of romantic anime and I like chatting with girls (I've been a single guy among 20+ girls in chemistry class at my school) however, I never had a girlfriend, even though there were girls who wanted to be with me, I'd just ignore/dump them, don't know why, must be something wrong with me, but I always find a reason not to date a girl.