Serious Anti-depressants

So Ive been showing signs of depression and insomnia lately and show no signs of happiness and I'm beginning to think I'm going to go into major depression some time soon.

I have a lot going on I'm my family life and relationship and try to be friendly with everyone and make friends but never works.

I'm looking for a place to buy anti depressants online and not going to the doctors because I have a really hard time to communicate face to face due to anxiety and other problems.

Can anyone help?