Anyone virgin here ?

i lost it at 16 in my country theres some kind of rule not typed that in order to become a man you need to do it, or to be considered as special or so ... which leads you to make it with the wrong person and makes you feel bad as f**k, in my case it was a girl i knew i liked her but i dint had the same feeling for her so i lost my virginity with her but made me felt misseable then this girl wanted to hang out with me as she thought it was mutual love while it wasnt few things in my life are totally wrong that one is bad as f**k