My Life Journey so far

WARNING: This may not be the most well written and interesting thread you will ever see here.

Starting off with little introduction on myself.
I'm InLife (not revealing real name), 19 years, born on 17th March 1996. I have a brother, 15 years elder to me and he's my only sibling.
Country: India

Infant

I was 2 years old when my parents used to leave me alone at home and went to work. My brother was in college so he lived away form home for months and months.
I used to stay alone for around 10 hours everyday and manage myself,because my parents were too busy to spend time with me. Any why wouldn't they be! when I was born, my family separated from my grandparent's home because the place was not enough for all of us to live in. We started living on rented house and my parents had to make a home so they worked real hard for my sake on the price of spending time with me.

I learned how to live alone from that age and my only friend was T.V. and Cartoons.

EarlySchool Years

I was like 5 and considering the situation, I still used to live on my own at home and stay hungry for almost whole day, I never used to bath for days and days (until sunday) and go to school. Everyone else used to hate me and stay away from me because I used tostink, a lot. many things happened and I used to sit alone in class with no friends but I used to play. Play by myself with paper or insects during recess, used to make things out of sand and I was creative.

I used to wear thick circle specs when I was 7 years old because of all that Cartoons.

I was sent to tuition classes starting my K.G. And I never liked how teacher used to teach there and I lost all interest in studying. i OK till my 4th grade. In 5th grade I failed in my 'Social Science' subject. That was the first time I failed.

Middle School Years

Things didn't get any better. I was a top student on my 'Yoga' classes and people used to call me 'monkey' because i used to climb tallest trees and do random stuff just to grab everyone's attention. But,I was still a lonerwith no friends until I was in8th Standard.
I got my first friend who approached me because of my playful nature and to learn form me what I used to always do. Climb trees and jump from heights.
And I still failed in 'Social Science' that year.

8th grade again. Everyone was busy inpreparing for 'Diamond JubileeYear' of out school. It was fuckin' 75 years old when I was merely 13. I had 2-3friends by thattime too. I joined a random dance which turned out to be a couple dance. and I~ was really scared. I never hand shook with a guy normally before and I was supposed to touch a girl's shoulders JUST ONCE in whole dance. I left it. I joined again after 2 days and the practice went for one full month. Funnny thing is I never touched her, kept my hands in air and did every step.

She being the first girl to talk to me politely, i had a crush on her but i never spoke until an year after our final performance. It was 11th January, 2009 when I proposed her and she next day she said 'YES'. I was fucking happy. Things went smooth until13th March same year when I out of no where got a text saying that we wants to break up. She never picked my call after that or reply to anytext. She deactivated her fb account and cut off every contact she had with me. I was okay with it.

After few months, 6th September (her birthday), I proposed her again. and she said... 'YES'
I asked her few times what happened last time but she told me anything. Same things happened and she left me on 8th November same year once again.
This time I was not okay at all. I cried. I was young, 13 years old and I cried like hell.
I cut my body with blade and I still have those marks on my arm and chest where I carved her initials.

About same time, my parents started giving me some attention as we finished getting our own home built, and soon after thatmy mom got me a new laptop. That was the first ever PC i owned andI used to run paint in it.
In school I didn't know how to start a PC and i used to call that first friend i had to start the CPU and UPS for me. I used to fail in that subject too.
After few months,9th grade was almost over and I got internet connection.
I used to spend whole day chatting and randomly wasting my time on internet until I learned aboutPhotoshop.

10th Grade. I wasn't a loner anymore. Infact I was one of the most famous guys in school and had possible biggest friend circle anyone in school could. I used to chat to like 200 people simultaneously and my fb account had more than 3k friends that year. I thought they were all my friends.

Turned out that they were just with me for learning and using my skills for free.

Soon I realized that and turned myself away from all the fame, deleted my fb account, created a new one and started sharing and learning from professionals.

It was the time when I proposed the same girl again. 3rd time in 2 years and she said... 'YES'
I was happy again and i thought that my fame supported me. Turned out that I had a breakup after 40 days on 9th December, 2012.
And I tuned into a sociopath, with big mustache and beard (i had mustache when I was 12 years and now people call me wolf), turned away from society, started hating everyone and never trusted anyone else ever again.

11th Grade. She proposed me this time, 7th December 2012. I said.. 'YES' why not. I cried almost everyday for years and years.
I asked for reason for all the previous breakups. She told me never liked me to begin with, she was helping her FRIEND who liked ME to stay close to me and as soon as her friend transferred to some other state, she broke up with me. I broke. I cried again and pretended I was fine now over phone call.
Yet again same thing happened and we broke up on 19th January 2013.

11th Grade. 6 September 2013. I proposed her again. Sat on my knees at her place with a redrose, she took the rose and slammed it in my faceand she said... 'NO'
I expected that answer. I lost all confidence in myself and turned into animal. Literally Animal.
I went home and broke every glass I could see my face in at home, broke my bed, broke my laptop which was the only good thing happened to me.
I used to fight. I lost my temper, I broke many bones both mine and others, I looked like an animal with long beard (equal to my hair on head) and...I started drinking alcohol that time.
I started basically to test ifshe cared about me at all. Turned out that she didn't but I got addicted.

By that time, my parents stopped bothering me and abandoned me. I was alone and had no place to go. I slept on benches in public parks and stayed hungry for days and never went to school. I stole an 'auto/cab'and went to some other city and started driving it and earned my living.After a month I managed to get my place back in home. I was still alone in my room and never about anything to my family.

I went toschool again and startedplaying basket ball, because she was 'sports captain' and she was state level basketball and badminton player.
I used to bunk all my classes andplayed like 9-10 hours a day to get in school's team. I got in school's team after 6 months. I got my official nick name. 'Wolverine'

That year I failed in all 5 subjects in my finals and I was asked to leave the school.
I gave re-test 5 times and joined the school again in 12th grade (different subjects - because my couldn't pass any of them)

12th Grade. My parents were forcing me to become an engineer. I wanted to be an artist. I fought them many times over it. I left science without telling them.
I got news and saw some photos of her with someone else kissing a guy in car. I broke apart. I talked the that guy's friend and confirmed that he's going to leave her as soon as they have sex. They did. I went to warn herto her place, she refused to listen and said that "you are just jealous so get out" and stuff. I slapped her hard on her face.
After a week I got news that they broke up, and that she was no longer a virgin. I lost my mind and i did... nothing.

6th September, 2013 I proposed heragain and answer was still a big 'NO'

skipping all the details

10th December 2013 she sent me a text saying "how am i supposed to say yes until you don't propose me, idiot" (translated to English)
I was confused but got in a relationship.

Many things happened and we never went on a date. It was school's final year and her cousin brother committed suicide. She was upset and exams were on.
I supported her as much as I could over phone. Never got a chance to meet her ever again.

We graduated from school. I passed with 65% marks, my parents were happy that I don't have to repeat school again.
our relationship was still on. She went to some college and everyone I knew went different ways.
I was sitting at home doing nothing and never tried in any college.

2 months passed and we didn't speak at all.
I used to call her everyday, send texts every morning and night, talked to myself, had no motivation to do anythingthen suddenly on 17th March, 2014 I get a text from her wishing me my birthday. We talked for 3 hours and I never asked why she ignored me or why she'd justdisappearwithout any word.
I started my search for college, but I was too late.
I ran away form home with my savings and bag packed and joined a design institute, bought a room on rent and told my parents they had to pay my fee for the course. They were quiet and accepted my deal to be successful artist, earn enough to save for them and buy myself a new laptop.

I asked my cousin, he's in Chicago to ship me a laptop, explained him my situation that I needed a laptop for my work and told him that I'd pay him later when I earn. He agreed.
After 1year I started my freelance designing and payed him what he spent on me.

By this time we broke up again and I still haven't made any contact with her.

Now (2015)

I have a girlfriend, long distance relationship. We never met in person until recently. We have been friends for 4 years through facebook now.
She had birthday on 18th June (last month) and I worked for one month, collected the cash and went to meet her. We met for the first time and we had amazing experience.
I love her, she helped me move on to my past experiences. She knows everything about me, my past, my experiences and I know her's. We have been in a relationship for 6 months now and we plan on taking it far, really far.

Now, I still do my Freelance work, my college assignments, I have also won many awards and have been student of the month 6 times in 14 months. My parents support me for my achievements. I havetraveled far away places for photography and other contest. I ace my exams here in college, teachers love me and I have worked on projects with them as well.

I am working hard to give myself, my family and my new girlfriend a better life in future. I fund myself for my weekend fun, bills and my college fee and I plan on earning a happy life till I am 24 in age (5 years from now)

This was a basic overview of my life so far. I haven't mentioned every single detail, I just don't know how to bring it to words. I have become really kind, empathetic, good listener and people come from all over internet (quora and other shit) and ask me for advice on everything happening to them.

I hope I didn't bore you with the long ass thread here. Just wanted a place where I could let me all go out.

And apologies for not formatting this thread, I have no idea how to make it presentable

Thank you for reading till end